Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Too good to last

Two days into a really good five day holiday break in the Forest and I knew things were going too well. As a combination of overdoing it and eating rich food I was extremely ill this morning to the point where I was as sick as I have ever been in my entire life. It is late afternoon now and I am only just out of bed feeling washed-out. Thankfully I had my family, especially my wife Zoe, to help me out this morning and throw me straight into the shower as she did the job of cleaning up after me. I still count myself lucky for having my family around me on holiday but last night was one of these times you wish you were in the comfort of your own home. The girls are currently off swimming now having spent the morning on horse-riding lessons, including the first ever time on a horse for our nearly four year old.

I have been putting off, or at least trying to put of actually vomiting due to a fear of finding blood or something worse but now I will not be so reluctant to get it out and get on with feeling better.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Another extremely rough night

Another one of those infuriating nights where I thought it would never come to an end and with each time I had to get out of bed to use the toilet I became gradually weaker to the point where I was almost too tired to even bother.
I knew I was going to suffer this morning and I have from being so lethargic and extremely tired, even getting items of clothing out of the cupboards was too large a task.

To top it all Jade Goody, the ‘star’ of reality TV has lost her well documented fight against Cancer. I only hope her family are left to grieve in peace and that they themselves treat the situation with dignity.
She thankfully, according to the reports, died peacefully in her sleep and to be honest it is one of the things I hope can be said about me.

On a happier note we are due to go away for a short mid-week break with our four daughters in a lodge in the forest and we are hoping to recharge our batteries before I inevitably start Chemotherapy again.
Is it inevitable? Well it is if the consultant has been honest with us as I am due to re-start if the pains return and it is only now, after almost four weeks without chemo, that I am beginning to feel a little of the old pains once again.